moody days

from the title i guess you managed to get what i would be writing on. 

my mood has been extreme hi and low lately. worst when it comes to this hour. wishing that there is someone that can accompany to chat but could not find any for the past few days. that's when i turned to you. a lot of things are running in my head and the worst i can't identify what is the real matter. everything seems to be in a blurry condition. i wanted to blurt it all out here but i can't. things that should be kept low and handle in another way. but when only can i have a good talk with you. when i want to talk you always left me here alone. but when i doesn't want to talk there you come. i am trying to be ignorant to control my temper and mood. but there is a limit to it. i do not know how long i can hold it. 

until this very day. i still missed my form six life. where there is someone that i could talk too. maybe not one but two. but things are different now. sitting together with them is a lifetime experience. we laugh together, we curi tidur together, blur together and going through the tough papers together. i miss you gals. 

i miss home. i miss my family and i definitely gonna miss you.