It is your choice...

it is all up to you to choose which one you want to be. 

In the society, there are all types of people-kind, caring, loving, humble, nasty, selfish, arrogant  and many more. You are not born with the traits but is YOU yourself chooses which one you want to be. Sometimes, these traits are not able to prolong in you. You tend to change-it might be for good or the other way round. 

Something i would like to share here on what i had experience and what i see from others. here, i would like to apologize as it might be offensive. 

One word to describe this first quarter year of mine-FULL OF DISAPPOINTMENT. i am totally disappointed with things happening and the people around me.  

Firstly, i am really shocked when i realized a good friend of mine in the university, are not taking me as her friend. how could she say it in front of us that A & B are only her friends. Not only that, she started to change-telling me this but telling others the other stories, talking bad behind me and being self-centered.  

Secondly, i receive texts from friends when i am in need. Ridiculous thinking back. Laughing at myself for being so stupid. i know friends are there for us when we are in need but that is not the way you could use me. i had enough of it and no more from me from now onwards. sometimes, not even a thank from them. i am not asking for any return but at least a thank to let me feel that my help is appreciated. i am not a 'know-all' girl. i learn and i see things. i will help if i could but please do not used me.  

Thirdly, i just realized people around me are self-centered and selfish. i guess not just people around me but everyone in this world. why bother to care about others when they are not there for you. there is nothing wrong with sharing. Even more disappointed when he told me that his friends did not tell him the tips from the lecturer when he asked them. he did asked. halo people, why couldn't you guys just let him know about it. it will not cause you anything and the paper is korean language paper. every single one of you are new and not familiar with it. Something i asked myself, what is the point of having a friend? 

Fourthly, totally disappointed when close friends are not able to spend not even an hour to keep in touch. How hurt it is when every time you asked there is no response to it or everyone just couldn't make it. Worst part, keep me wondering what happened there. That is part of the reason, i do not find you gals now. *sorry being so straight and offensive* i used to ask myself when i take the initiate to contact them, will they thought that i do not have anything to do therefore i ask them out. if any of you gals have this is mind. i can tell you that i am not. i just want to keep in touch with you gals. when there is no communication there goes the gap. i am sure you gals feel the gap now. i am like a stranger to my friend now or they are like stranger to me? i feel i do not know you gals anymore. 

this would be the last post to end all my misery. what is on my mind all this while, has all been told in these three posts. i am not thinking any of it from now onwards. like i always said, 'WHAT WILL BE, WILL BE'. not putting any hope, not wishing much but just want to live my life to the fullest. 

before i end this, as now is the examination season, here i would like to wish all of you 'GOOD LUCK' for your finals.