it is back... i have that feeling again and i hate it...

can you please just let me know how you want it to be??? i've stopped myself from thinking about it and now is back... it does bother me you know... when i thought everything would be fine, here it comes back again... i no longer wants to shed a tear but i had that feeling just now... damn... my mind is stuck now and a lot of thing is going on in it... how i wish the time could just stop for a moment... can you like don't do this to me anymore???
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i felt much better after having a talk with my friends.. maybe i am just being too sensitive like what they say... irrational last night... i got my senses back today... the only thing i could do like what i was told is concentrate on my studies and forgets it... now i feels like going back to uum as soon as possible... the longer i stay back here it makes me think more... really hate myself for being like this... why i can't be just like that person??? at least i will be fine and not in this situation...
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the feelings is getting away day by day i guess... i felt much better coming back to the jungles... most probably of my schedule... discussions almost everyday... i had tons of assignments that are due end of this month... yesterday in just a class, i got 3 assignments... argh...but, i am really delighted to be back here and see some familiar faces... hehe...